I struggled all last week y’all. I wasn’t moved to write, I didn’t know what I wanted to talk about, and I was just not feeling it. I’m constantly stressing over not knowing my purpose. I have amazing women around me and they are doing big things. This is by no means a competition but they are walking in their purpose. I’m jealous, not of their success because a victory for them is a victory for me. I’m jealous because they have figured out their purpose. I watched this awesome Periscope by Julian of Bold and Fearless all about Finding Your Purpose. The content was amazing, I took notes and I was still not feeling Bold and Fearless. WHAT IN THE WORLD!
In the Scope Julian gave tips to find your purpose. One of the tips that stuck out at me was “People will tell you you’re good at this particular thing. People will come to you for it.” About eight years ago I sent an email to my friends and family asking them what they thought I was destined to do. I didn’t realize I’d been on this search for so long. They came back with some expected things, one would think I’d have the answer by now. NOPE!
These are all things that are true to me yet I still didn’t know my purpose. Maybe I’m looking at it too deep; maybe it’s not that serious. Julian said our purpose doesn’t have to be a Sister Teresa type of thing. I love doing so many things; I turned one into a business without intention. It was one of those things people said I was great at and so I decided to make it a business and see where it took me. I keep trying to quit this business and it won’t die. This couldn’t possibly be my passion right. It’s not something that I love so much I would do for free I tell you that.
I don’t know why I’m so fixated on knowing my purpose but I am. To the point that I feel a bit stagnate. WHAT IN THE WORLD. I’ve been struggling to write for two weeks and I’ve hardly posted to IG and FB.